Her lost love

Knowing that her man, a pilot was engaged to someone else, she couldn’t resist crying. She was in anger. She was in pain. She lost faith in others as well as herself. She sobbed bitterly sitting in the dark corner of the kitchen. She regretted for the mistake she had done by loving him unconditionally. A number of thoughts were lingering and her mind was in fluctuation. A chaos of emotions roared in her. She wondered how she could be cheated and there was no justice.

Her father was worried about his only daughter and claimed she would never think of him again who wasn’t loyal to her and that she would move on with life. He was old and in a trembling voice, he asked her to untie the knot, the knot of his memories.  He strengthened her with courage and was ready to stand by her.

Her fumbling attempt to forget him constantly went in vain and she gave up trying. Her shaft of hope and dreams were now dismissed. She heaved a sigh. Finally she dropped the idea of falling in love again and decided to remain as a princess only to her father!

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The staircase

                                                                                     

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After fifty long years, he took her to the place where they used to meet. His tears rolled down as all those moments he spent with her flashed before his eyes. He took her shivering hand in his and said “I love you forever!”  

With difficulty she got up from her wheel chair and shouted “Who are you? Take me home now“. 

“This was where you fell off the staircase and lost your memory. And I thought seeing this place might help you a little to get it back. Our home is thousand miles away!” he said to himself. 

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Word count: 100

Why-O-Why?

Why life, why do you play with me

Am I the only target? Why only me?

Without any ups are there only downs?

Only with failures & pains am I crowned?

Life has turned into a sad fairy tale

With pains, I am prisoned in a dark jail

My throat parches, my screams go dry

I push them hard, so none can hear my cry!

I pray, I plead but I hear no voice

My every move is from a bad dice

Bound in a cage of fearful fears

will I break this & make life a cheer?

I am no more a clay, instead a numb stone

Happiness & joy do I ever own?

Every move has become silly, a child's play

Woes & pains never stay at bay?

I wasn't that girl who gave up anything

But now, something says I am nothing!

Though I ask, I pray

For every task, have I become a prey?

Why? Why every step is going so wrong

Is it to such a world I belong??

Love you too!

She was sitting at the table with tears in her eyes, rolling the chopsticks between her thumb & her Index finger staring at the food. 

He got up from his chair, came to her & whispered: “Sorry. I know you are hurt.” She was angry. She ignored him.

“We had a pact. Right? No matter how much we fight, at the end of the day, we shall have food in a single plate? Love you” he whispered & kissed her forehead.

He dragged his chair beside her & fed her  the Maggie he had prepared.

“Love you too”, she  smiled.

Word count: 100

This post is written for Friday Fictioneer-25th July,2014 and also for Day 20 of The Ultimate Blog Challenge.

The Demons

With a million fears & unseen tears;

I close my eyes, wish to fall asleep

But then, My demons come to play with me

To challenge me & neutralize me

A thousand memories my heart recalls;

Again my unknown fears, make me a call

Huge giant hands come to grab me

With fear, I take a step back

They push me to the ground

I couldn't fight back, With demons I am bound

With black horns they are crowned

They pierce my chest, I feel I am drowned 

Wounding the wounded soul

Stab my heart leaving a permanent hole!

I pray, begging them never come near

Though I yell, its nobody who can hear

Adding, The violent wind blows

Fright knocks & deeper it grows

Before I open my eyes, with moan

I am mercylessly thrown

Far away in an another heap of sand in hot desert

A desert of another pain, I assert.

I struggle to stand up, get up;

Again they haunt me, with fear I curl up

I fight to survive, my soul, my body aches

All in vain, my bones break.

More I try to get up;

More do they pull & stab me down

They seem to diminish me, they line up;

They let down my strength, chills rundown! 

Tears flow as I scream with pain

But nothing, all my courage going in vain

They push & lock me into an unknown land

In a dark dense forest, in a haunted land!

They tease me, laugh at me

None come to aid, not even He;

I will never win this war, this battle

Life ends, me being only a BIG null.

It was Neither fruitful or thoughtful

In this life, Neither I gained a medal

Nor I was called a jewel

All I left on this earth was only my useless skull?

Where the ink speaks ...

Nobody loves me, Nobody cares;
Not even a single soul, everyone just glare!
Life is turning lot more than hell;
Earth is no more a place for me to dwell!

No sound, not even of a single bell;
Sorrows, woes I am drowned in well!!
Not a single human cell;
To give ears to my yell!

Honey bee's of Failures pains all surround;
There is no heal to this wound!
Happiness, joy & love when will they surround?
When will the success be crowned?

My heart is tired, tired of everything!
Absolutely zilch for which my heart could sing!
Nothing that joy could bring;
With broken wings, Life has become a broken swing!

I am never a girl, who easily gives up;
But for how long can I hold this cluttered cup?
How long can I hold a fake sweet smile;
Mask to be thrown in a little while!

No reason to live on this earth;
For there is no life, no more a mirth!
Love, joy, happiness I crave, I dearth;
Held only by troubles & tears girth?

Why am I the target for every failure, every pain?
Drenched by heavy rains!
"No pain, No gain" Someone said;
But, "Only Pain, No gain", my heart is fed!

It knows no merry, gay or joy;
All my feelings, have become a toy!
Everyone hates, Everyone complains;
All agony, in my heart left a permanent stain!

All my dreams & aims left shattered;
Have become the biggest nerd of this herd;
Why failure is only the word overheard;
I wanna gain the wings of an eagle bird!

What if none gives ears to my ails, my speech
My pen hears it all, Where the ink speaks .....

Walk with me....

When I was tangled in troubles & pains;
Tossed in life's ocean, raging with heavy rains;
Strengthening & Bracing up my broken wings;
So, Again my Life could be on swing!
Walk with me all my life, all along;
For its only you, to whom I belong!

You will be my divine, give me a chance;
Like the waves & the oceans, forever our love will dance!
Hold me, I wanna be in your arms;
For I love you until the Sun meets the storm!
Walk with me all my life, all along;
For its only you, to whom I belong!

When you feel low, you can lean on my shoulder;
When in pain, I shall be your mother!
None can see, for love is like the wind;
In your divine love, I wanna be chained!
Walk with me all my life, all along;
For its only you, to whom I belong!

Walk with me all my life, all along;
For its only you, to whom I belong! 

First Love!

When I first met you, You were the one I never knew;
I don't have a clue, for how our friendship grew!
Sharing the best secrets & untold stories;
Time made us the best & true of friends!

Time & then, I discovered the real you;
Gentle, pure, honest whose heart is so true!
My thick & thins, ails & grieves you were through;
I asked myself, to me who were you?

Soon, there was a bolt from blue;
I discovered, No more I could live without you;
Days rolled & greatest fear within me grew;
To my fate, I couldn't resist falling for you!

Though your love, you 've never expressed;
I know, 'Cause Silence can also be sensed!
Our story is like that of '2 States';
No luck! I sit here starring at the closed gate!

Now, I love the time we spend together;
Though we know this wont be forever!
Even God can't answer our prayers;
'Cause We are never made for each other!

The sweet yet sad story of how two writers;
One day, they need to become strangers!
I know, our love will never prevail;
Hmm.. We need to go where the ship sails!

Of our silent first love, I will write a novel;

Whose love is pure, true & noble!
Stay happy forever, I wanna see you smile;
You own a special place in me all the while...

Between Love & fear!

We can never stay together;
Though its clear;
Why God makes me fall for you dear?
Why my every beat is bringing you near?
On the bare sand here;
I sit with a ocean of tears;
Struggling between Love & fear!

In every rain, every wind
Your voice I hear!
In every song I hear;
In every dream I see
For you know you can't stay in future;
Then why do you appear?
Please! I am Struggling between Love & fear!

I plead. I pray to forget you;
Though my feelings are true;
I wanna bid this love adieu;
If you want me to stay happy;
I beg! No more come near;
For I am Struggling between Love & fear!

Unlock me! I wanna fall in love with life again!

Almost two years passed;
Since I breathed my life a last!
Life has become lifeless;
Breath a breathless;
Each breath has become a waste;
But the Dead soul, running in haste!

Dreams & life, shattered into pieces;
All I wanna do is Forever wanna rest in peace!
An empty heart with a lamented soul;
And an empty life, without any goals!
Life has turned how void & unfilled
Lost the hopes to rebuild!

Why do you put me in the toughest tests?
For whom should I plea to give me the zest?
All in vain, though I quest!
You can test me later;
Please, I plead
Now let me rest!

In Pains, worries & troubles;
You have caged me, tangled me
Tightly Locked me;
For whom should I plea to grant those keys?
For I wanna fall in love with life again;
I wanna be back with the real 'Me'!

I wanna land on Mars! :P

I wanna leave this materialistic earth;
For I find no more a mirth
For that doesn't mean I wanna die;
I wanna fly to mars with a great sigh!

For I am tangled in earthly world & earthly things;
Wanna mount, give me the golden wings!
Bless the red planet with water & air;
For I can grow some fruits & food I prepare!

Wanna hover, where green rivers flow;
Two moons above & the rocky ground below!
From high mountains to the deep valleys;
Breaking from this cobweb, I wanna flee!

Bid adieu to earth & land on mars;
Where still I see heavenly stars!
Where I see the storms of rustic dust;
And has many a craters thrust!

For all I need is, a piece of peace;
God will you bestow that planet for lease?
Bless me with the eagles wings;
I shall land on mars, with a great zing!!

If I die tomorrow!

 

 

If the sun doesn't rise for me tomorrow
Will you stand with a heavy heart with sorrow?
For my happy days on earth is over;
And heaven is pulling me closer!

Though how much you shed your tears;
And scream & yell, I will be no more to hear
For, you cover me with a bouquet & bunch of garlands;
I will be no more to smell their fragrance!

Though I 've cherished all through twenty years;
Will you speak to me in your prayers?
Tomorrow, when in coffin I lie
Will my today's memories make you cry?

If tomorrow, I bid a good - bye;
Will you really miss me or just a sigh?
Have I painted your hearts with my love, my smiles? So,
When I go away, in your arms will you hold a while?

Tomorrow when my soul, my body departs;
Will you cherish my art in your hearts?
When heaven calls me & there comes my time
Up in the sky, see me as a star that brightly shines!

My blessed last moments with you;
Will you treasure through or just shoo?
When I leave you all & bid adieu ;
Hope I will be safe in your hearts, for my love is true!

Forgive my sins & forget my faults;
The best memories with you, may never halt!
If tomorrow death arrives;
With you, within you, I always stay alive!!

Love you forever!

Knocking the door of my heart;
You came into my life, like twilight
Making me drench, in the ocean of your love;
Made me free from tangled chain of plight!

Sorrows ails & grieves you took apart;
The one who is so much close to my heart!
Gave me warmth by your sacred love & tender care;
Kept me nested, when in despair

Words can never say how much I love you;
For my love is true & deep as an ocean blue
Your arms, is for what I only pray;
Where heaven lies washing all my pain away!

In my every breath I feel for you;
In every song I hear, I dream of us, of you;
I wish to live with you, where watching our love;
Even the moon & stars smile from above!

Like a divine in soul & a best friend for life;
Wish to live with you, my whole life!
For, I know you make all my dreams come true;
Sunshine, I wanna stay in your heart, as your lovely wife!!